Sunday, August 22, 2010

Another world



I was listening to Linkin Park and the lyrics were something like this:

When my time comes,
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some

Reasons to be missed.........Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learnt to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
And save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are



I CAN'T BE WHO YOU ARE.........may be I can hide things from this world, wear a fake smile on my face and behave as if this whole world is my home. The truth is I'm empty from inside. There is no charm, no zeal, and no connection. I wonder where is the girl who used to smile all the time, her doll was her biggest asset and every small little gift made her feel like a princess. She smiled as the Sun rose and talked to the Moon. She used to wait curiously for his dad's arrival from office coz he used to bring candy for her. Her mornings started with fun and nights were full of excitement. The flower blossomed.



As times passed on, she moved towards adolescent..........the most dangerous and beautiful part of our life cycle. Here she decided to explore the world and moved out of her shell. She met many people and categorized them as; good, bad, mean and selfish. There were so many lessons for her. She forgot to smile with the Sun and her nights spent in thinking. Millions of realizations, daily corrections and various complications........The flower lost the charm.



I have all the things necessary to live this life..............but wait a minute? Why do I breathe so unevenly? Why my face pains when I try to smile? Why do I frown more than smile? Why my sleep does not refresh my mind? Where is the happiness? What am I looking for? I heard my mother saying that I would find solution of every problem once I grow up. I'm still waiting for the solutions. There are my friends to help me, my love to cheer me up. In short, I'm dependent on them to fill some joy in my life. I don't know how long I would survive in this manner. May be, I should find out another world for me where I can hear my soul and read the nature's signs. A world which is not polluted by cruel intentions and artificial faces, where 'I'm with you' statement does not come with a silent word 'conditions apply'. May be, I'm expecting too much or may be this is what everyone wishes for 'A peaceful and beautiful world'.