Be my angel........forever

I was feeling lazy since the morning. My mind was wandering somewhere and there was nothing to do. Suddenly, I picked up my old diary where I had jotted down special things. It included special days, good memories, bad memories and list of my good friends. Friends, who were there for me when I was nothing, who shared their precious time when I was nobody and who made me so important with their behaviour when I was not earning a single penny.

I wonder how the time changed everything around me. Now, I am independent. I have enough money to party all the time, designer clothes to flaunt and lots of experience to share. However, the friend list is almost empty. There are lots of things to share, but there is no spare time to discuss them. There are various credit cards, but no one to go out with me for shopping. I need to decide my plans in advance as every one is busy. I know the boy sitting next to me in the train is staring at me, but there is no one to confirm it for me. What have I earned so far is so small in front of the loss of my friends.

I am amazed how I used to share my daily routine with you guys when Mom used to shout over the telephone bill. Now, I have my own cellphone, but it hardly rings. How I used to tell you guys when someone complimented me about my hair band. Now, I seldom mention the proposals I get weekly. Eating a new chocolate with you guys was so exciting for me. Now, even the new cuisine hardly appeals me. I do not know whether in past 5 years I have progressed in my life or lost my precious achievements.

One thing I missed for 3 years was a smile of my friend, Pankaj. He is the person who acted more like my diary. I shared everything with him. Be it a crush on my trainer or situation out of my control. Whenever I felt low, I bumped into him and spitted every silly thought. And then, somehow we lost the connectivity. Anyway, I would still bestow my gratitude towards God for the countable friends I have in my life today. Whatever I have today is still the best I deserve. I can smile more than 50 times a day and feel content after every busy day. I cannot imagine my life without you. I cannot start my work without the gorgeous Shaily standing by my side, laughing with me at silly jokes of Santosh and Tejinder. I feel uncomfortable without wishing Namrata and Lovely a lovely day in the office. My head spins round until I hear 'I hate you, don't talk to me' saga from Shikha. I feel great when Tina tells me that I have not missed my assignments deadline. I miss Sarika's furious smile over my silly actions. Sarika, you are my darling. :-)

I love you all. You all are my angels. Be with me, no matter how silly I act or react at different situation.

Thanks............:-)

'A ship is safest at the shore, but that is not what it is built for'

"Manager", I was so scared of this word. I had pre-notions about bosses. All thanks to my friends who described their boss or manager as 'monster'. However, it was you who changed my mind and my world.

"Welcome aboard, guys", were the words I heard in a sweet voice. When my eyes looked up to find the speaker, I saw a slim, short haired and bespectacled face with a smile. It was you, Jigeesha.

You had an amazing charm and u carried the positive aura all around you. Your work standards and expectations were very high and there was no match for the perfection you had in your field. Your dedication to work was beyond the expectations and your smile never vanished even in the difficult situations. There were lots of things new for me and you helped me in every field. Your expectations made me more competitive and your trust in me gave me immense strength. I was lucky to have you in my life as my 'manager'.

You always said to everyone that they should 'dare to dream'. I did the same. I dreamed to succeed in my life as per my choice and achieved all the dreams. I still follow some things from your style. I didn't forget the "catch" and "disclaimer". I never miss smiling before answering any question. Be it a simple question or unexpected one. However, I missed the chance to tell you that I admire you. I am thankful to you, Jigeesha. Thanks for trusting my skills, for helping me in learning new things and for providing me the most pleasured moments with my 'Boss'. Thanks a lot, Jigeesha. I miss you. :-)

That's me.........a woman

"Woman roar and dance,

care and fight,

show their emotions but is shy,

Sacrifice her life, but want one answer, why."

I was born with lots of tenderness, hopes and reason for lots of smiles. I'm a girl. A new life created by my mother, who kept me inside her body for so long and changed her living style to make me comfortable inside. A new member for my father, who held me for the first time with all the care and did the same for the rest of his life. A cute small thing for my brother and sister, who considered me their new playmate. :-)

I talked and walked for the first time and my mother was all in tears (joyful tears). I liked the flowers, toys, water splash and the nap on my father's lap. I went to school and learned all the society's norms and rules. I cried, laughed, sighed and wondered a lot. Why can't I understand amimals' chat? Why butterflies were so beautiful? So many questions aroused in my mind. I'm the growing up girl.

I graduated in some course and in my life as well. I learned the control and patience required to lead my life. I'm a sister who helps her siblings in their lives, who remind her parents to take medicines on times and do the household chores to give some rest to my mother. I took her support to walk properly. Now, I give her reasons to rest properly. I'm the grown up girl.

I can feel the pain of my loved one, delight of new things, sorrow of other human beings, the taste of tears. I can cry easily to wash away the pain, laugh on nonsense talks to relax my mind, hug people to make them feel special, smile whenever I see beautiful creations of God. I can react on violence, humiliation and aggression. I can live my life the way I want. I'm the woman. Proud to be a woman who is sensitive, determined and sensible.